Did you miss me?

I have not written a blog in a while... The passed days have been a bit crazy... a lot of people that I have not spoken to in a long while called me... or visited me... or I just ran into them... I guess the Lord does work in mysterious ways. I even saw the love of my life!!! TWICE!!! He hugged me and had the best smile ever. So yeah... Everyone has been calling me so I have been busy with that! I am so glad to here from all my friends that had been away for a while... the only one missing was Evelyn. I think I will call her. It was an interesting week indeed. I had my good times and bad... thanks to my friends I had more good than bad. I don't know if I told you but I but I have the cutest and the best boss ever!! D-D-D-D-D-Dora!!! She helped me a lot through my bad times... I don't think she knows but she is one of those people that changes you life without even knowing it. She is a angel... and a great boss... It is funny because you would think that people would take advantage of her but they can't because she is SOOOO nice.. that if you tried to... you would probably feel really bad. She also has a way of making you do things.... because if you don't do it... you would feel really bad. She is a great person. aawwww!!! ok next. Well Bianca... "que te puedo decir".... she helped me a whole lot... our friendship is very different then all the rest... we identify with each other really well. We are very loud together. It is like me times 2!!! GREAT PERSONALITY!!! hehehehe She pierced her nipple today!!! How crazy is that? She is also sexually frustrated... hehehe. Any takers? Luz and Mary are also very crazy girls but nothing compared to Bianca and I. I will write some more later on!

What are we so afraid of?

What is it with people being afraid of what others think about you... being judged or in that case knowing what people really think about you??? I enjoy knowing what people think about me... positive and negative... but if you are going to judge me... tell me... not everyone else. I have come to a point that I can say everything I think about someone to there face... they may not want to hear it... so I will get the hint and respect that... but if they ask me... I am more than willing to express it. So if you have something to say to me... go ahead and say it... I will not try to excuse myself.. I will mearly try explain to you the situation... if you want to accept it... great... if not... there is nothing for me to do. So why are you afraid???... like my sister always said... "Si tu problema tiene solusion de que te preocupas... y si no... para que te preocupas?"

Mexican Goddess

Turkey Vacation

This week has been quite unique. There are a number of things that my friends have gone through... from one night stands to pregnancy scares (don't ask for names).I am glad that they are happy with the results they got : ) Even though I really want her to have a baby, I know she is not ready for that kind of comitment... as for me... I have had some mixed feeling about quite a few things. I had a Fantastic Thanksgiving... I was invited to go have lunch with Bianca and her family... I still can't get over the marbel story. You see what happened was that Bianca was helping her dad out in his office. He is Children's Psycologist. She went to his office to use the phone as she was talking to a future patient and writitng a referal. She was looking for some gum as she was on the phone... she then saw some "gobstoppers" so she decided to have that instead of the gum... she throw one in her mouth and accidentlly swallowed it... she then got another one and descovered that they were marbels. They were her dad's marbels to play chinese checkers with the kids. hehehehe Bianca has a great family... from her mom... which by the way makes killer green rice... to her brother that makes great conversation. I then went to Zorie's house. I stopped just to say hi... her mom is very friendly and her sister has beautiful eyes. Then I went to Thanya's house... I missed her. She came down from SA. I then went to have dinner with my family. I then did nothing but relax the whole weekend... IT WAS GREAT!!! Hope yours was also good.
Peace, Love, and Happiness.

P.S. Happy Belated to Mary!

Do you believe in love?

I believe that I fall in love everyday. I do. There is something someone does almost every day that makes me love fall in love with them or adds to the love I feel for them. For example, Edilio made my day yesterday by telling me that he was here for me, that I was not alone. (Even though I already knew I could count on him, it was very sweet of him to let me know.)I do not like that people use the term love just to describe what they feel for there significant other and not to desribe what they feel about a good friend. I also believe that sometimes a good friend can be more impotant than family. I beleve this because you know you don't have to like this person, there are no biological strings attached, but yet you deside to share part of your life with them. (Some)Friends are like angels who lift you up from your feet when you forget how to fly.

Self-Satisfaction

Don't think nasty, this blog will not involve any discusion on masturbation.
Have you ever thought about what you have done with your life?.. no matter how old or young you are... are you satisfied with what you have done with your life so far? Have you live to your expectations?? Make sure they are your expectations... not your parents... or your peers. Well have you? I believe that I have... I have graduated high school...(a very good one)... I have helped people find God when I was very religious (even though I am a bit lost myself at the moment)...helped many friends in ways that I had no idea I had helped them... I have volunteered so many hours in the hospital and in church... (1,350 to be exact)... and now I am in college in the pre-med program. I believe I have surpassed my parents expectations... which means I am in the right path but most importantly I have meet mine... I will accept that I have a lot of things to do in order to meet my expectations in the long run... but if God permits I will try my best to fulfill them. I can say that I am saisfied with the things I have done in my life so far... Are you?

Friendship

Define friendship... think about it for a minute... now think of how you picture a perfect friend to be.... it that the kind of friend you are???

Is change good?

I believe that change is good when you are talking about underwear. About eveything else I am not sure... I believe that change can be good at times but it is absurd when you are changing in order to please others or to be a part of something. Many people who know me know that I really don't care what people think about me... I wear what is comfortable, act the way I am, and I say what I think. If people do not like that... it becomes their problem and not mine. Why is it so important for people to fit in... to at different around certain people... or to try to become "cool"? Define cool.... Someone with many friends? Someone who is liked by many? If that is cool... then I am cool... and I honestly don't think that is cool. What is the point of being surrounded by so many people if you can only really count on a few when you need a friend? So I believe it is better to be "normal" and have a honest group of friends then anything else. Change can be good and change can be bad... just make sure you are not leaving any of your good friends behind and that you don't try to be somone you are not.

What would you do without me?

Today was a blah day! I was thinking of what the purpose in my life is and of the things I have done and the things I am doing now. I was wondering.... have I made a difference. I am realistic and know that at this time in my life a difference I am looking for is not one that would change the whole world but maybe change someone... or help someone that I care of. I wonder if I have done this already... have I really changed someone... have I made a difference... and if I have... What is it? Is there anyone that would be thinking in a future about the positive effects I have brought? I don't know... this has been going through my mind today.

Today is not a good day... and tomorrow does not look good either.

Have you ever felt that the whole world is coming down on you? That what you thought was a great life was actually a stage to the cruel reality in which we live on? That friends are not always there for you and that you have to know how to deal with it? Well I do.